Human Be Ing and the walk you must take if there is not soap is my first published book. It is terrifying. I keep being nudged like it must be the most exciting thing in the world because I admit this has been my dream since I was very young. I don't know that I can even still call myself a writer. The truth is I am horrified at the thought of anyone reading these stories and I am certain that somehow these stories will be the worst things ever written and will somehow get me murdered or worse they will be of no interest to anyone at all.

I have felt myself trying my hardest to hide away and disappear as I do when I feel like my existence is about to destroy everything. The only way to save the world and the people I love in it is to no longer be a part of it. This is the opposite of what needs to happen when a person is trying to publish a book. I desperately want my gait to be lighter not heavier and I want to hide away.

I hope you do read this book and I hope you find meaning in it. Something about being human and how complex it can be. I hope you find that even when things seem very black and white that there is room for slowing down and thinking things through in a different way. 

Today I am pretending to be human so that tomorrow I will feel a little bit more like I belong among you. So that tomorrow maybe I don't have to pretend quite so much.